Today is a ho-hum day…..the laundry is on the line, but it is overcast outside and may rain any moment.  I feel sad and ho-hum just because.  I’ll pull the laundry off, and fold it and put it away, and put it on and stink it all up again and do the same thing all over next week.  Life continues….perhaps that is what I am processing through….life continues.  Summer is going by….  Life continues with it’s joys and hardships.  Laundry will need to be done and hung next week too. 

This summer has been good….really it has, I write that not to convince myself, but because it honestly truly has been a good summer.  I’m not gonna lie though….it has been hard too.  You see, early this summer we were excited, truly excited because we were going to be parents.  Yeah…..I was pregnant.  We began to dream and plan with excitement.  But, for reasons we don’t really know, my body decided that it couldn’t support a little life in the way that it needed to, and about a month ago we lost this little one through a miscarriage.  With it came plenty of emotions and messy hormones and such.  I thought I would “recover” after a week or so.  It has taken….uh….a bit longer.  I am blindsided by emotions when I least expect it.  Like today…I guess…. 

We have clung to Colossians 3….“Let the peace of Christ rule your hearts….and be thankful.”  We have camped here this summer.  We are not mad at God.  Just hurting sometimes.  And we are okay…  But two days ago we found ourselves hiking together…..just us.  Not us as “program director” or in charge or with people where we needed to hold it together.  I lost it.  I guess because I could.  I just cried and hiked.  Larry assured me that it was okay to not be okay for a while. 

And today I hang laundry.  Summer continues…..sometimes I wish I could stop it for a bit….but the laundry will need to be done next week despite whether it is overcast or sunny. 

I am emerging on the blogging front…..And so I end this post….after not posting for a while….because what does one post when emotional for a month?!?  Perhaps just what I am thinking….like on a ho-hum day like today.  (Unfortunately, I lost my camera somewhere or it was lost at camp or who knows what….so enjoy a pic of someone picturesque laundry on the line compliments of Google.  It looks nicer anyways.)