Welp, here we go back on the blog train…..I guess not writing for a bit proved that it is read.   

It has been a unique month to attempt to articulate all that encompass our days…what we do, what we think about, worry about, pray about——all that we do or do not accomplish at home, at camp, or at school.  Neither of us have been overcome with epiphanal thoughts or pithy things to write about…

There is this tension that we have found ourselves in lately.  Sometimes we feel the tension more than others.  This week, or this month rather, we have been feeling this tension a lot.  Unfortunately, it has turned into feelings of defeat. 

Let me attempt to explain:  The tension lies in what could or should be accomplished in a day and what actually happens.  It seems that there are so many needs (opportunities, issues, heartache…whatever you want to call it….I’ll stick with “needs” that we see) at camp, at home, at school——logistically and practically, along with relationally, spiritually, and emotionally.  We can each become so defeated by what we should or could have done in a day.  We end our day feeling like we let someone down, and carry the pain or hurt of people.  (Thus = defeat.)

And yet, it is in the tension that we have a choice.  I could crumble under the weight of needs on this side of heaven, or I could entrust them to the one who is greater than I.  I am not very good at pausing to ask HIM, “Here I am today…use me in your unique ways and orchestrate my encounters.”  And when I do, I need help discerning what that looks like.  Moreover, I need to know when to stop at the end of the day and rest in HIM.

So through this tension, I pray for wisdom….